It’s leaning uncomfortable

I got laid off 2 weeks ago. As an individual contributor, structural changes necessitated by circumstances can’t always be avoided.

Did it get stressful after that? Not at the start. I was full of energy for the first week, but then it dawned upon me and the second week was very stressful.

Was this my personal failure? No, but yes. My work didn’t lead to my layoff. But my work didn’t also save me from getting laid off.

I have two choices now: get another job or pursue further studies. I seek answers and will have mine soon enough (from myself, of course).

But I also have to unlearn a lot of things. Unlearning and relearning right now is leaning life towards being uncomfortable. A necessary evil for my better future.